
Through five to ten, not much except the existance of an ignorant child happened. I went to school, was ignored by mostly everybody (leaving me to the inside of my head, starting that itchy habit, and my imagination), and started figure skating in second grade. Skating was my life; it was a drain pipe to the rain of it all, and let this alleged rain water to freeze, and serve as an outlet to stress and artistry. After the death of Charlie about a year after the trip to disney, and four or five years after that, my grandmother (wife of Charlie, on my mum's side) moved out to pennsylvania, to be close to myself and my brother, as well as my parents. My aunt lived with her, to take care of her, for she couldn't really take care of herself well, and still can't. I was there every single day, right after skating practice to 8:00 P.M. I'd swim in the pool (it's a ranch house, with a pool) every day of summer, and often invited the one childhood friend I had over to swim.
When I started fifth grade, in about...October, I met my 'best friend' (the same one that ruined my life...?) and all seemed to be well. I was basically tricked into ignoring the few friends I had, and ditched them for this new...bi - I mean friend. This was the beginning of things getting out of hand. Sixth grade was horrible; socially, except for the best friend, I was incessantly bullied and hassled. I had the self esteem of a...person with no self - esteem! I tried to fit in so bad, but was next successful. I learned to not attempt to fit in unless I naturally do (which I don't) through all that. Seventh grade was the worst year of my life to date; I developed a nasty case of Panic & Anxiety disorder, lost a ton of weight from it, and developed numerous health problems due to the lack of not eating healthy.
I was a nervous wreck, and was also having serious issues with my Latin teacher (who left the school), who verbally, emotionally, and somewhat physically abused not only me but my classmates. My grades were horrible because as a person, I was doing horrible. Thankfully, I finally got help and picked myself up off my feet, and started eight grade on the best foot possible. I was ditched by the friend (I was heartbroken for months, but now am okay most of the time), but found better, nicer people to spend the time I have for socializing. I started writing a ton more than before, and started reading quality books and being a generally happier person. I also have been getting amazing grades the entire year. I've grown up a lot. That's the best part.

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Okay, so with each and every post I read of yours, I get more and more convinced that we're identical. Especially with our health issues.
I won't get into right here, but I'll have to tell you about it sometime. Though, it does help to know that there's someone out there almost exactly like you, oddly :)
I love this post, and will totally do it today :D
l,
Hannah
ps. aweh!! look at little precious baby christina!!!
:D
Aw, I'm sorry Charlie's death was so hard for you. And middle school, ugh I hate all that crap that happens. People say high school is worse, but by that time you've already learned and know how to defend yourself ... in middle school, it's completely new and you're vulnerable to anything. Personal experience here as well. Thanks for posting this, it was quite brave of you.
Have a fantastic Easter too :)
peace&love,
nicole.
p.s. Thanks for the Facebook picture comment! It's so old :P
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